It’s been one month since I introduced Future Me. I thought I’d update you on what’s happened.
I haven’t lost a thing. The scale has gone as low as 3 pounds down, but it’s varied between my starting weight and -3 in a way that makes me unwilling to count the lower numbers as actual weight loss.
And today the numbers that stared up at me were the very same ones I saw on January 1st.
I have followed the diet, I have exercised regularly, I have not cheated.
A week ago I started googling to find out why I’m not losing and I found some things saying if your liver is toxic, you won’t lose weight. The articles listed caffeine and artificial sweeteners as major contributors to liver toxicity.
Desperate for results, I decided to give up my Diet Coke (MY PRECIOUS!) and see what happened. I’ve had a 2-a-day habit for years, which was slowly evolving into a 3-a-day habit. So, if caffeine and aspartame mess up your liver, and a messed up liver keeps you from losing weight, I should help my liver out a bit, right?
I’m not sold on this detoxing stuff, really. Just willing to try it.
So I quit the Diet Coke cold turkey and I bought some supplement thing. I’ve also been squeezing the juice from half a lemon into my water once or twice a day, which supposedly is good for the liver. I think the supplements are helping me cope with the no Diet Coke, but clearly I’m not getting weight loss results. (Yet. It’s a 2-week plan, so maybe it needs more time.)
I just don’t understand why I’m not losing. Of course, I’ve seen plenty of stories online about people who have dropped weight – “It just melted off!” – on Atkins, but I also know people in real life who have gone low-carb and had great results.
One friend ditched grains and lost 12 pounds in a short amount of time.
Another friend said she dropped a pants size by “staying away from Oreos and other junk.”
What?! I have been generally low-carb for a year, and strictly so for a month. I weigh as much today as I ever have. Why does it work for them and not me?
I’m not really willing to blame the diet and try the next book on the shelves. I believe that carbs drive insulin which drives fat accumulation. I believe that fat is the body’s preferred fuel. I believe in a ketogenic diet.
I am sure if I go to the doctor and ask for tests to find out why I can’t lose weight, they will tell me I’m in a healthy range for my height and I should quit wasting their time. Or worse – tell me to eat low-fat and hearthealthywholegrains.
So I’m just not sure what to do. Part of me wants to drown my sorrows in a big vat of peanut butter cup ice cream and wash it down with a huge Diet Coke.
Part of me wants to go on some starvation diet and eat as little as possible because Dangit I Will Win.
Neither seems sustainable.
So, that’s where I am after one month of working hard to lose my extra weight. Frustrated and feeling like a loser.
A loser not losing.